I’m back in action and actually have been for quite sometime now... without the distractions of social media of course! I wanted to ease back into it by sharing with you what I have been up to for the past year!
Back in October, I removed myself from all social media. I felt like I was getting caught up in images and lifestyles that I could never live up to. It was extremely toxic and messed with me a little. I questioned my success as 28-almost 29 year old who had more than I had ever dreamed of at one point in my life and ultimately decided that using my time to better myself, my education and my family was a much better alternative to comparing my life to someone else’s through staged photos and nothing-less-than-perfect profiles. It was such a good decision and I feel that I got the detox that I needed.
I was able to accomplish more college work that you can imagine and to top that I started flying again, which has been my biggest accomplishment thus far. I never realized how I missed it until I actually got back in the plane for the first time in almost eight years.
While I still have a long road ahead of me. The greatest victory for me thus far was the barriers that I overcame in my head. In the beginning failing and disappointing all my friends and family that have been such solid supporters this past year was my biggest fear. In reality, most days I prayed to God to give me strength to push forward and a keep me motivated.
I feel as though much has changed within me this year. With all the courses and studying I’ve done, I started to develop a deeper love for knowledge. I learned to handle and accept criticism for what it’s worth.I have learned that giving up or letting go of your goals can often times be the easy-way out of things. I was able to create habits so that my workload didn’t necessarily get easier, but the decision to continue and move forward did. I can't say anything of these things got any easier but my ability to push myself through them did. I had to convince myself that there was no other way if I wanted to get back to flying. I made all of these things part of my daily routine on top of working full time and being the best mom I could be for Sophia.
Now that I’m getting older and maturing more than I’d like to admit I can say I’ve had my handful of trips and falls along the way but I started learning that most of my failures are only temporary, and I could learn from them and push past them stronger than I was before. My failures had bought much clarity and understanding for achieving my goals and not giving up. It was then that I realized that what I’m doing is not easy and will never be. If it was, everyone would be doing it. If all of this was easy, it wouldn’t be so SATISFYING.
Accomplishing my short and long term goals has been the greatest confidence builder because everyday I am able to prove that I can get through harder tasks. As a full time worker, wife and mommy, none of this has been easy and I’ve had many nights filled with tears and some where I’ve questioned my sanity? Yet... I’m doing it. I’m learning that I’m much stronger than I’ve allowed myself to be in the past and I believe many of you can relate. We can do anything we put our minds to it.
My point in all of this is, do the things that you dream of doing! Do the things that you have been scared to do or get back into. For me that was getting back into the airplane after becoming a mom. For you it might be something completely different. Just know that it WILL be tough, but you are tougher. And that’s what makes the payoff and ALL OF US so much better in the end.
Don’t take no for answer when it come to things you feel inspired to do. Don’t be afraid to stand for what you believe in or go against the grain. I’ve learned that NOT everyone is going to be on your team and it was a hard pill for me to swallow because I’ve always tried to be a people pleaser. Use those people to fuel your fire ever more. All that matters is you, your happiness and what you want to achieve. Don't be afraid!
I owe so much to those of my family, friends and co-workers who held me accountable, especially when the going-got-tough this past year. I want to say thank you to some of my dearest friends for holding me accountable and being there for me when I needed a solid support system. Thank you for dragging me to gym workouts to distract me from all the craziness that I had been going through in the moment. Thank you for all the vent sessions. And last but most certainly not least thank you for inspiring me to get back into the airplane and reconnecting me with something I've always had a love for - I'm forever grateful for that.
You all know who you are!